Tuesday, April 17, 2018

To My Readers-

I always knew this wasn't going to be a forever thing.

At some point, during the writing of this blog, I thought to myself, “This will all go away at some point.” I knew I would end up taking it down, I just didn’t know when.

For the last couple of months, I’ve struggled with this blog. I’ve written countless drafts, only to feel I wasn’t supposed to publish them. I didn’t feel right in publishing them.

Then here in recent weeks, I’ve gone through old posts, and I’ve reverted some back to drafts— thinking they served their purpose then, but are no longer needed. 

And the more I go through posts, I think, "There's really good content here, but I'd feel the need to edit this, or that,..." But I can't go back and edit things. Things that happened were real, and I need to hold history as it actually happened. 

After much prayer and thought, I’ve decided to shut this blog down. 

This blog was a season. But, the season is done now. My grief. My processing. It’s finished. I’m done. I’m done with it. I have nothing more to say on the matter.  

Thank you for reading while my world came crashing down. Thank you for walking with me. Thank you for the support—prayers, kind words…all of it. 

As of now I’m not starting a new blog. But, I'll be back at some point, in some capacity. 

I’ve been living my life in public view for so long. I began blogging on myspace in 2006. That’s 12 YEARS of having people watch me live my life. And I guess I got used to it. So I also want to break away from that, and have the experience of living in the quiet. To have the bravery of heart to live a life unseen. 

God has been so good to me. I can't escape His goodness and His faithfulness, any and everywhere I turn.

I don’t know how long this will be, but I think this is exactly what God is leading me to. I’ll miss you guys. See you around the bend!